Luth Mahfuz.

MARRIED OR NOT, YOU SHOULD READ THIS ...

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. If you are not in a relationship now, remember this for the second (or third) time around. It's never too late.

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

Produk Untuk Kulit Sensatif

Assalamualaikum. salam ramadhan guys! dah 6 hari kita berpuasa. Alhamdulillah. so kali nie yati nak try buat entry berperingkat dengan harapan yati nak beri informasi dekat korang yg penting dan sesuai untuk di share. okey, entry untuk kali nie yati nak story pasal product sensative care. sebelum nie sejak dari sekolah lagi yati mengalami alahan resdung. menggerutu tu pernah kena. sampaikan low confident nak berhadapan dengan semua orang. then after that yati cuba cuba produk tradisional yang membantu jugaklah proses kurangkan jerawat kat muka. syukur.

tapi sekarang, susah nak jumpa produk produk tradisional dekat kedai2. kalau ade pun kedai jamu. tapi merisaukan jugak sebeb tak tahu ada kkm atau tidak. sekarang pun banyak produk terbabas laris, yang menyebabkan jugak faktor faktor merosakkan kulit dengan cepat! *pandangan yati lah* hahaha

jadi kali nie yati nak share 3 produk sensatif skin yang memang tak diragui pemakaian dia. oyeh!

1. CLINELLE

hampir 5 bulan jugaklah penggunaan produk clinelle, memula memang tak confident nak pakai sebab masa pergi watson dulu, promoter tu kata cuba ini produk sesuai dengan muka you banyak blackhead. itu memang dah biasa lah sebab kadang clenser nie dia membersihkan muka bagi tidak mengeringkan kulit tapi tak semua membersihkan. sekali dah pakai haaa terus jatuh hati! hahaha sebab kita dah biasa dengan kulit berminyak, dan terasa give up nak try produk lain. so lepas belek2 memang sesuai. jadi yati suggest produk ini untuk kulit sensatif sebab memang buat kulit muka tak mengelupas dan kurangkan jerawat dan blackhead.

  cleanser

toner

so jangan lupa cari produk nie untuk kulit yang menyihatkan!

2. SEBAMED

sebelum nie yati pernah alergi ayam dan menyebabkan kulit nie mengelupas dan kemerah merahan. tak berjerawat tapi bila mengelupas, merekah rekah dan sungguh tak tahan! dah macam kulit rosak pun ade. so masa tu yati amek ubat hospital bagi mengurangkan pedih. tapi lama lama guna ubat hospital buat kulit kita gelap dan kusam. so second choice jom cuba sebamed nie! Produk nie kira memang zero perfume, tak menggunakan oily, dan neautral. kalau memang beginning muka dah problem dengan sensatif, memang disyorkan pakai produk nie.

Gel muka.

Pencuci muka berbuih

Toner

3. SIMPLE

Produk yang last sekali nie yati suggest untuk pengguna yg bukan heavy sensatif skin. dia ade penambahan perfume dalam produk tapi masih lagi sesuai untuk kulit. yati pernah menggunakan sekali tetapi tak bertahan lama sebab masa tu yati still lagi alergi tapi losyen simple nie memang sesuai untuk semua kulit. sapu kat tangan boleh, kat badan pun bole tau. before this, yati tak bole pakai mana mana lotion yang ade perfume. jadi untuk lotion neutral, memang bole digunakan bagi menghilangkan radang kulit kat tangan!

lotion simple

Semua produk yang yati tunjukkan ini sesuai untuk kulit sensatif. tetapi harga bagi setiap produk tu memang agak mahal dari produk produk lain yang pernah kita beli. contohnya kite beli clenser nivea dalam RM12 macam tu, tapi harga untuk cleanser clinelle RM27 lebih tak silap yati. takpe mahal sedikit pun janji kulit sihat!

okey okey nie last ya. for those yang tidak boleh memakai perfume bagi mengelakkan kulit tubuh meradang, jom try produk nie. yeyeye!

victoria secret nie best dia banyak body spray seakan akan perfume. so far yati pakai memang sesuai sangat. sejak kawan yati buat penukaran perfume, yati dah jatuh cinta dengan perfume nie. yey! sanggup beli yang original sebab satu satunya body spray yang seolah olah perfume. victoria ade jugak collection perfume sebenar so check this out lah nanti ye.

so keep healthty, keep refreshing and thanks spend untuk entry kali ini. kipidap guy!
Muah

Salam Ramadhan

ROH YANG KEMBALI DI BULAN RAMADHAN

Apabila tiba bulan Ramadhan, semua roh berkumpul di Luh Mahfuz memohon kepada Allah S.W.T untuk kembali ke bumi.

Ada roh yang dibenarkan pulang ke bumi dan ada yang tidak dibenarkan.

Roh yang dibenarkan pulang adalah kerana amalan baik mereka semasa hayat mereka ataupun ada penjamin-penjamin yang mendoakan mereka.

Manakala roh-roh yang tidak dibenarkan pulang disebabkan kesalahan mereka semasa hayat mereka akan terus di penjara di Luh Mahfuz.

Apabila roh dibenarkan pulang, perkara pertama yang mereka lakukan adalah pergi ke tanah perkuburan untuk melihat jasad mereka.

Kemudian mereka akan pergi ke rumah anak2 mereka, orang yang mendapat harta pusaka mereka dan ke rumah orang yang mendoakan mereka dengan harapan orang yang mereka lawati itu memberi hadiah untuk bekalan mereka.

Perkara ini akan berlarutan sehinggala tibanya Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Pada saat ini mereka akan mengucapkan selamat tinggal kepada jasad dan pulang semula ke Luh Mahfuz dengan bekalan yang diberikan oleh mereka2 yang masih hidup.

Di sini diberitahu hikmah adanya alam kubur.

Alam kubur membuktikan bahawa Allah itu Maha Penyayang.

Orang yang melakukan kesalahan semasa hayatnya boleh dibantu dengan doa orang2 yang masih hidup.

Alangkah bahagianya jika seseorang yang telah meninggal dunia masih mendapat bekalan dari orang-orang yang masih hidup.

Oleh itu wahai sahabatku, jangan biarkan orang-orang yang kita sayang, yang mengadap Allah terlebih dulu daripada kita sepi tanpa doa dan sedekah daripada kita.

Sesungguhnya apabila mati seseorang anak adam itu, terputus ia semua hal kecuali 3 perkara iaitu doa anak2 yang soleh, ilmu yang bermanfaat dan sedekah amal jariah.

Sebarkan hal ini kepada seberapa ramai orang terdekat anda, dan mintalah mereka untuk melakukan hal yang sama.

Yang jelas jika anda tidak meneruskan hal ini, maka anda telah melepaskan kesempatan untuk saling menasihati dalam kebenaran dan beramal soleh.

Jika anda melakukan dengan ikhlas insya Allah anda akan mendapat ganjaran pahala kebaikan.

Tunang Kawin

Alhamdulillah. sorang sorang dah bau nasi minyak. dengan lauk sedap. yey ! tahniah fara ngan anep. couple paling super duper pernah aku jumpa. susah senang korang, memang kieorang rasa. deep gilaa. so kalau jodoh dgn classmates, jangan tak sangka yaa.

so untuk shana, best of luck to you. bunga dah dipetik orang. Alhamdulillah moga kekal ke gerbang perkahwinan. kenal since form 1 lagi. masuk poli sesama, praktikal sesama. wahhhh excited. 

so yang tunggu calon nie wat lek dulu. selesaikan adik adik dulu. eh bukan aku ke yang bongsu. hahaha. so puasa dah dekat. fokus dengan bisnes Insha Allah ! dengan projek kuih raya, sewing lagi. general issue kat ofis nie. terasa nk belah belah badan nie buat semua kerja. huhu

so anything nak order whatsapp ya !

When I Was Your Girl

aku tak tahu kenapa hati terasa tak tenteram. tak ada bahagia lagi. tak ada rasa mesra lagi. aku perasan, mungkin aku yang terlampau mengikut hati. ataupun sebenarnya menahan murung. terasa semua berbalik pada diri. sedih terlampau. sampaikan semua aku merasakan menyakitkan hati. betul. bahagia tu tercipta jika hati dah bahagia. bukan memiliki pasangan kau akan rasa bahagia. bukan. totally not. sebenarnya kau akan suffer kalau fikir macam tu. apetah lagi kau masih tak memahami pasangan kau sedangkan kau belum lagi faham diri sendiri.

kalau Allah tu kata mungkin sekarang masa untuk menghadapi dugaan. aku redha. ataupun Allah turunkan hukuman. Mungkin balasan aku yang terdahulu untuk dicashkan sekarang. tapi Allah, pedih sangat. terlampau. melepaskan seseorang yang aku sayang disebabkan aku tak mampu lagi nak kukuhkan. sampaikan aku dah rasa mana kekuatan aku dulu yang takde hal aku bole handle. tapi semua lebur. lebur sebab aku masih kurang yakin.

masing masing punya kelemahan. punya kelebihan. ataupun hanya salah seorang sahaja yang punya rasa kasih sayang. aku tak tahu. merajuk bukan persoalan. permulaan bagi mendiamkan. aku tak tahulah. kenapa aku mesti mengeluarkan semua kata kata sedangkan kau sendiri cuba nak bertahan. sebab tu lebih baik aku diam. supaya hati kau terjaga. dan melepaskan kau kalau itu yang sudahnya. 

Ya Allah. betul aku nak dia yang last dalam hidup aku. manusia yang mampu menahan kerenah aku. walaupun dalam masa yang sama aku tak mampu menahan setiap perkataan dia. terlampau tajam bagi aku. tapi mengertilah. tolonglah. mana pentingnya aku dalam hidup kau. sebab aku dah tak daya nak berdiri dengan sia sia.

enjoy it.

Brownies

seminggu yang perit. mungkin sifat perempuan yang nakkan perhatian. nakkan kasih sayang (yeke?) hahaha. Ya Allah aku tau aku menduga emosi dia. marah dia. sampaikan naik darah dia. menangis aku far. memang silap aku. keluarkan ayat yang aku rasa sebenarnye aku tak mampu nak hilang kau.

hari hari pujuk. walaupun aku tak reply. kalau reply pun dengan icon thumbs up je. huhuhu

aku rase dah lama kot janji brownies tu. entah dia timbulkan balik. siap pujuk2 ajak lepak dengan heh sekali. motif ?? hmm yeke kalau merajuk je cepat2 vromm seremban. kesian jugak hmm

aku tau far kau sungguh, sanggup turun datang ambil aku. pusing balik hantarkan aku. tahan je kena marah dengan aku. try slow down kan aku. nak pujuk tapi sebenarnye x reti haha. semua aku nampak. takde yang aku tak nampak. sebab aku sayang. sebab tu aku buat macam tu.

mekaseh untuk perhatian tu.

rasa sayang tu.

sebab selalu ade disisi aku.

The One

Alhamdulillah. rasa bosan tu tiada dalam 2 tahun nie. hari hari bertekak tu biasa. sampai masing masing pening kepala. dengan layankan aku jangan lah kata. hahaha sungguh aku sebak far. kau memang banyak merubah aku. even lah persahabatan dulu kat poli buat kita biasa biasa. sedangkan kalau kau berhadapan ngan aku tunduk. ini sekarang kau tak berubah. adab kau tetap sama. tak berubah apa.

even lah masa tu kau like semua pictures aku dari time bergambar dgn lelaki or others kau tetap like. kelakar jugak. habis poli baru rapat. chatting semua bagai. and after that we gather for the first time kat mid valley. hahaha dah tak bole cover dgn bebudak nie. and pernah sekali kau sanggup dari melaka turun ts sbb nak pujuk aku. (betul ke?) hahaha tadelah dah susah jugak nak jumpe. kau sibuk ngan robot, kesian aku takde kawan. huaaaaa and i really hargai far. kau buat aku nak nangis. time tu memang janji ngan shida, syafiq ngan dekwan je. terpancul kau depan aku. kau tau tak jantung den macam nak berhenti far. tahan nangis je tau ? T_T

"Suhanallah.. Hebat kan ciptaan tuhan?" ayat yang terpacul dalam mulut heh about aku dengan far. yes he is the one yang dapat sejukkan aku. kemarahan aku. sumpah far tak pernah janji manis, ayat manis. punya dia sabar tahan pening kepala dengan sikap aku. walaupun adakala dia marah, tapi dia dh tamau bangkit hal tu. still try buat aku gelak even dia bukan jenis berseloroh. huhu

aku harap. aku nak apa yg kita rancang kita kekalkan even hampir 4 tahun persahabatan kita nie walaupun istimewanya aku biarlah seperti sekarang. sayang tu bole pupuk tapi capai future dulu. see u in ipt pulak ya. hahaha dulu poli kann.

 terima kasih far.
thanks a lot .